Dive at 2:00 a.m. - November 17,2025

[Posted： 2025/11/17]

It's 2AM, and under the sacred influence of late-night brain fog, I, Kazuhiro Tanaka, will now record the wild hallucination that came to me. I've sobered up since, but I'm still gonna write it. Even if it's embarrassing. No shame. No regrets.

On November 17, 2025, 2:00 AM, the delusion of the night was... “Positive Thinking”!

They say it's important to think positive.

But hey?some people are just not dealt a winning hand in life, right?

Take me, for example. I was a chubby teenager. And I don't mean softly rounded, I mean human mochi-ball levels. So yeah, I was riddled with inferiority complexes. Positive thinking? That was for people with cheekbones and confidence.

I did eventually lose weight. But for a while after, every time I heard the word “fat,” I'd flinch like, “Are they talking about me? Did I not diet hard enough?!”

Stuff like “fat” or “ugly” just grabs you by the self-esteem and shoves it into a trash compactor.

When people like that try to force themselves to “think positive,” it usually turns into one of two things: desperate cheerleading or turbo-charged denial.

And that's exactly why I respect the hell out of final boss villains in shonen manga.

You know the type.

They throw their arms wide and shout:

“I have cast off my humanity! And now, I am immortal!”

…and then they transform into some grotesque monster with tentacles and an eight-pack of eyeballs.

Sure, they're strong. But let's be real?if that happened in real life, you'd be like:

“Okay, cool story bro. But… why tho?”

Because me? Even back when I was chubby, I never once thought:

“I have cast off my humanity and gained an immortal body!”

I mean, yeah, I wasn't immortal, so there's that.

But even if I were immortal?even then?I'd probably still be hung up on my weight.

So to be able to just stand there, in your glorious meat-monster form, and proudly proclaim:

“I am beyond human now!”

…that kind of confidence?

That's true positive thinking, baby.

And I envy it.

Though, let's be honest again: most of those villains end up getting the snot beat out of them by the hero anyway.

So all they really did was… give up their humanity and lose spectacularly.

Positive thinking is hella hard, man.

Kazuhiro Tanaka's Morning-After Comment (Nov 17, 2025)

For the record, I've put some weight back on recently.

But I don't feel inferior anymore.

I eat what I love, I drink beer, I make games.

There's literally no room for inferiority complexes in this lifestyle.

So if I were a final boss now, I'd probably say:

“I haven't given up my humanity?but I do eat what I want, drink beer, and make games!”

And I'd say it loud and proud, baby.